Feeling a little guilty…

February 16, 2010 at 9:01 pm (Junior)

OK, maybe guilty isn’t really the right word, but we’ve been so incredibly spoiled with how easy Junior is.  It’s a little weird to talk to other moms with kids the same age.  He was a super easy teether.  In fact, we called him the “Phantom Teether” because we’d look in his mouth and Oh look, he got 2 new teeth.  I think once he got a super mild fever for a tooth, but that’s it.  Other than about a one month period after we moved, he’s been a great sleeper.  At 6 weeks old, he’d sleep from 10 or 11 until about 5 in his crib.  He’d wake up to nurse and I’d put him in bed with me, then we’d get up around 9.  Every time I hear a mom complain about ear infections, lack of sleep, picky eaters, terrible teething, I don’t know what to say.  Yikes, I’m sorry to hear that.  I hope you can figure something out. Or, I really don’t have any advice.  My kid is super easy. Or I’m sure they’d love this; Wow, that must suck.  I’m sure glad my kid isn’t like that!

Trust me, I’m beyond thrilled that he’s so laid back, but the thought of having a colicky, picky, clingy, screaming baby freaks me out.  I really want another baby, but I’m not sure I’m cut out for those high maintenance kids.  I know, I know, that totally puts a checkmark on my Bad Mommy card, but I’ve been spoiled and I like it!

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Please excuse me while I pout…

February 9, 2010 at 7:41 am (Random rantings)

When you grow up in a small town like I did, there are people you went to school with from day one.  Some of these friends have been a part of my life since I was three.  Through junior high and high school, I kind of faded away from them, mostly because I went to a different school for two years (or so I’d like to think).  We all went to the same high school, but it was never the same.  Over the last couple of years, we’ve reconnected on Facebook.  But, true to the story of my life, I’m still the outsider.  Around Thanksgiving, I suggested that we all try to get together during the holidays as one of the girls would be in town for a while.  I got shot down on all sides.  Most of them just didn’t respond to my suggestion and those that did said they would be just too busy.  I know everybody is generally busy around the holidays, but I was hoping that some of us could carve out a little time together.

I was looking at one of the girls’ Facebook pages tonight.  Go figure, they all got together over the holidays and couldn’t even throw me a pity invite.  I guess it just reminds me how few friends I really have.  Even as a kid, I never had many friends.  In high school, I just loved spending every Friday and Saturday night at work or hanging out at home with my parents.  My senior prom landed on my 18th birthday.  I didn’t go.  I couldn’t get a date and the few friends I had all had dates.  I didn’t want to be anybody’s third wheel.  My parents were amazing and took me to the ballet instead, but I was so embarrassed to be in the same city where prom was held just in case we ran into anybody from my school.

I dunno, I guess it just kind of sucks to not have many real friends.  I know it’s morbid and random to think about, but if I died today, who would even show up to my funeral?  I’m sure my family would be there and my one good friend, but that’s probably it.  Well, I guess they’d save a lot of money since they could use a small facility and certainly wouldn’t need to buy much food for the reception.

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Decorating…

February 1, 2010 at 7:20 am (Junior)

I really want to decorate Junior’s room.  When he was born, we lived in a one bedroom apartment, so there wasn’t a room to decorate for him.  When we moved to the house we’re in now, it was kind of a quick move and we just never found the time.  Then Hubs lost his job and there wasn’t money for the project.  I’m really hoping that with his new job there will be a little bit of extra money around to finally do something with JR’s room.  I feel kinda bad that he’s two now and his entire room consists of his bed, a rocking chair that’s usually covered with a never-ending pile of junk and his toy kitchen.  The walls are stark white and his blinds are an enthralling shade of cream.  Our landlord is awesome and perfectly fine with us painting the walls in subtle colors, so I’m thinking of a subtle paint color and some bright accessories, but where do I begin?

A super theme-y room maybe?  Or just a couple of bold colors?  I don’t know.  He’s not REALLY into anything but Curious George and what if I do his whole room in “Georgie” and next week, he’s not cool anymore.  Plus, I’m too frugal (read “CHEAP”) to spend that kind of money on commercial bedding sets; I’ll just make them myself and George fabric is hard to come by.

I doubt he’ll care or even notice what I do to his room, but it’s actually kind of stressing me out a bit.  I’m a total perfectionist, so I want to do it once and do it perfect.  I don’t want to feel like I need to do it again next year because I didn’t do it right the first time.  I think this has really been on my mind because we’ve been talking about adding to the brood.  I want JR’s room to be perfect before we do a nursery.  I’m sure he wouldn’t even notice, but I would feel like a total jerk for doing his unborn sibling’s bedroom before his.  Once again, I’m stressing out over nothing.  He probably doesn’t care at all what his bedroom looks like anyway.  Especially considering that he hardly spends any of his waking hours in there…  Maybe I’ll just paint it all black…

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