On to next month…

April 18, 2010 at 6:40 pm (Baby making)

I got a little disappointed with all the BFNs, so I decided to quit testing this month.  AF was due on Friday.  She hasn’t shown up yet, but I’m sure she will soon.  I don’t feel preggo.  I think I just over-analyzed a lot of little tiny symptoms that weren’t really anything.  Hopefully next month is better.

I’ve been saying for the last month that I need to start taking better care of myself.  I guess it’s time to really buckle down.  I’ve been smoking a little here and there, forgetting to take my vitamins, not eating healthy and not drinking much water.  Maybe if I start doing all these things, I’ll have better odds next month.

I’m really going to try to take things more casually next month.  Let’s be honest, I know I won’t be super laid back about it, but I don’t want to go overboard.  I don’t want to get my hopes up so high that the fall to reality hurts so much again.

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It just keeps coming…

April 7, 2010 at 3:38 am (Baby making)

Here I am getting all excited about possible preggo symptoms and Hubs comes home with a bomb to drop.  His new insurance at work is not the $250/month he thought, but $1200!  A couple of months ago, he asked a coworker what he paid and left it at that.  Apparently, this coworker only has himself, not his wife and daughter, covered on that plan so the cost is astronomically bigger.  He’s eligible for insurance starting next week.  When we started TTC, we assumed it would take a few months and figured we’d be insured by the time I got pregnant.

Now, here we are (well, me mostly) freaking out.  It’s still early, but I really feel like I am pregnant.  I found some private insurance policies that aren’t great, but do-able, but I’m afraid they probably don’t cover existing pregnancies.  And with our current income, I don’t think I even qualify for state insurance.  I’m so ready for just one thing to happen the way I want it to.

My lower belly still has that “full” feeling that’s been going on for a couple of days.  I’m only 6 DPO, so it’s still way early for testing, but I did again anyway.  It’s negative, of course, but there’s no saying that it won’t change over the next few days.  I’ve also been crazy tired.  I fell asleep on the couch this evening.  Other than Sunday, I can’t think of the last time that happened.  I feel like I’m losing my mind!  I’m so ready for this next week to fly by so I can now for sure one way or another.

Without further ado, here’s today’s BFN…

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I’m offically crazy…

April 5, 2010 at 5:25 pm (Baby making)

I’m just guessing when I ovulated since I don’t have a definitive answer.  I think it was 3/31 which makes today 5DPO (Days Past Ovulation).  I know it’s way too early to test, but I just couldn’t help myself!  So, I’m going to tell myself its a scientific study.  I don’t know exactly what I’m expecting considering this is only our first cycle trying, but I’m just going to roll with it.  Here comes the craziness…

5DPO – BFN

We’ll see what tomorrow brings!

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I’m way too impatient for this stuff!

April 5, 2010 at 4:59 am (Baby making)

Since I’ve just gotten started with all the TTC stuff, I honestly don’t know exactly when I ovulated this month which means, I really don’t know how soon I can start testing.  Yes, I’m that crazy about this already.  I really want to get on with all this stuff and figure out if there’s going to be a next step.  If this cycle doesn’t end up in a BFP, I could get an Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK… see, everything in the TTC world of Mommyland has an abbreviation).  Of course, I’d rather just get pregnant this month.

For pretty much the whole afternoon/evening today, I’ve had cramps.  Not bad ones, but cramps nonetheless.  It’s not nearly time for AF to make her monthly visit, so it’s not that.  My mind is getting the better of me.  Maybe it’s something baby related?  I don’t know.  I’d love to think it is.  Then the minor freak out starts.  Oh my gawd, we just started TTC.  We didn’t expect it to happen this fast.  Are we really ready? And the madness continues.

I think I’ve decided that I’ll post a picture of every pee stick.  Heck, why not?  I can pretend that somebody in Cyberland gives a hoot about what’s happening in Mommyland.  And if nothing else, this will be a fun place for my shrink to look at in a few years to see where my eventual spiral into madness began.

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Yeah, I lied…

April 1, 2010 at 8:16 pm (Baby making)

I said I wasn’t going to go crazy with TTC… That lasted about 2 weeks.  I’m now temping and charting, and I bought HPTs in bulk.  Yeah, really.  Every morning, I wake up super early and take my temperature before I so much as blink.  Apparently, the hormones associated with certain parts of the cycle make your body temperature slightly lower or higher different times of the month.  I use a website called Fertility Friend to keep track of all this as well as when we BD, when AF (Aunt Flo, the monthly gift, menses, whatever you want to call it) shows, etc.  The whole point is to be able to track down when I’m most likely to ovulate so we can time our “efforts” accordingly.  For some reason, I really just have this fear that this is going to take a while.  I figure, why waste time not knowing what’s really going on?

There are places online you can buy cheap HPTs like the ones doctors’ offices use.  I bought 25 of them.  Yup.  Sure did.  Even though I’m not looking forward to seeing the BFNs (Big Fat Negatives), I’m actually really looking forward to obsessively taking tests every morning until I get that BFP (Big Fat Positive) or AF rears her ugly head.

I’m crazy.  I know it.  It’s okay!

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Yummy yummy pizza crust!

April 1, 2010 at 5:36 pm (Food)

Shocking as it is, I really do other things than just obsessing over Junior and the yet-to-be-conceived child.  I’ve been really into making breads lately and invited some friends over for homemade pizza, so, naturally, I made the crust from scratch.  It turned out pretty darn good, if I do say so myself!  This makes a giant batch (as in, enough for 3-4 pizzas depending on how much crust you like), so keep that in mind.  You can always take the extra dough and pop it in your freezer, just make sure it’s really sealed well.  This makes thick “pan pizza” type crust.  Please note, I’m not Italian, nor do I claim to be trained in Italian cooking!  This is just a simple recipe I like to make and my friends and family like to eat.

Mom’s Yummy Yummy Pizza Crust

  • 2 packets Active Dry Yeast (or 4 1/2 tsp if you’re using the stuff from the jar)
  • 2 Cups Warm water (as close to 110 degrees as you can get it)
  • 2 Tbsp Sugar
  • 5 cups All Purpose flour (you can sub a couple of cups with whole wheat flour if you prefer)
  • 1/2 cornmeal
  • 1/4 cup butter, melted
  • 2 Tbsp dry basil
  • 1 Tbsp dry oregano
  • salt and pepper to taste

In a large bowl, combine yeast, water and sugar.  Stir; let in sit about 5 minutes until it’s foamy and all the yeast has dissolved.  Gently mix in everything else.  Turn it out onto a floured cutting board and kneed for about 5 minutes.  If it seems too dry, add a little more water; or add more flour if it’s overly wet or sticky.

Grease a huge bowl and put your dough inside.  Cover with a damp towel or plastic wrap and let it sit in a warm area for about an hour or until dough roughly doubles in size.  Punch it down.  Divide it into however many pieces you want.  If you’re going to bag some up to freeze, now’s the time.  Lightly grease the pan you’re going to bake your pizza in and press your dough into it.  Again, cover it with a damp towel or plastic wrap and let it rise again for about 30 minutes.

Preheat your oven to 400 degrees.  Top your pizza with your favorite goodies (or do small pizzas and let everybody in the family do their own!).  Pizzas will take about 15 minutes to bake, but check them after 10 or so in case any large bubbles form (if they do, just poke them with a knife to release the air).

I like to toy around with adding other seasonings to the crust.  Dehydrated onion and garlic are great.  Consider leaving the herbs out and you can make dessert pizzas with this recipe too.  Enjoy!

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